I'll pray for you.

so, i'm twenty.
no longer a teen.
not yet an official adult.

this year has been crazy.
like seriously.
i-n-s-a-n-e.

a year ago.. wow.
so much has changed.
really.

let's see..
last august,
best time ever.
thought it would never end.
best summer ever.

everything was great.
it was so much fun.
all the time.

then summer ended.
and shit went downhill, quick.

let's see..
bff's bf turned drug addict.
that was a mess.
october this happened.
big drama.

i left nau in december.

gave up on somebody finally.
best decision i've ever made.

moved to california for six months in janurary.
got to know my madre and sister.

moved back to arizona in may.
had a great summer.

in july,
bitches fucked up in the end.
i'm still not sorry for anything.
and i never will be.

and here we are.
i'm still here in one piece.
and you know what?
life is good.

i'm in college.
i have amazing friends who stand by my side.
i have my mother and sister in my life.
i have people i can turn to for anything.
i'm not a slut, like some people.
i'm not a lying bitch, like some people.
i'm not a hypochondriac, like some people.
i'm not a loser, like some people.

i'm going to make something of my life.
you on the other hand,
well sweetheart,
both of you,
goodluck.
you are going to need it with the way you are going about your lives.

goodluck on the crazy highschool drama.
goodluck on the pregnancy scares.
goodluck on knowing who the baby daddy is, god knows you don't know.
goodluck on make believe illnesses.
goodluck on gossip.
goodluck on shit talking behind people's backs.
goodluck on finding a place to live.
goodluck on finishing college when we all know you are both failing.
goodluck on hating eachother secretly, that's really cute and all.
goodluck on becoming alcoholics.
goodluck on not giving a shit about anything or anybody but yourself.
and one more thing..

when you are both all alone,
which you will be, because honestly,
you can't hold a friendship together if your life depended on it,
i want you to think of me.
and think how i'd walk through fire for either of you.
and think to yourself,
"well.. i fucked up. shit. lemme call lauren."
because you know what?
i won't be there.
and you'll have not one person to help you.
because you both are destructive.
you both are pathetic.
and you both are most certainly going to have incredibly, insanely, drama-filled, highschool non-sense, slut filled lives.

i really hope the best for you.
:)

oh and one more thing, again..
trying to be my best friend's friend,
nice try.
that was real cute.
but a word of advice,
don't fuck with me.
you KNOW i will fuck with you x10 harder.

we saw that happen already.
we all know what i can do.
i didn't even spill the half of it.

i really find it quite precious that i'm so much better than the two of you.
it really makes me smile in the morning, knowing that i'm going to make something of my life, and you just.. well.. really aren't.

this blog entry isn't even being spiteful.
i'm completely over everything.
over the bullshit.
over the lies.
over the drama.
over the fucking whore shit that happened.
over it.

this blog is to remind you two, for one,
STOP READING MY BLOG.
two,
i really hope you made the right decisions.
and three,
you both fucked up enormously.

i had to remind you. :)
you know, cause you two are pretty fucking stupid.

that is all.

:) have a nice day.