Goodbye Arizona, Hello California<3

goodbye, arizona.
hello, california<3



i'm finally leaving.
ever since i moved to arizona,
i've wanted to go back to california.


since i've been in arizona,
i've gained friends.
lost friends.
loved.
lost.
didn't care.
cared too much.
smiled.
laughed.
cried.
felt like i was going to die.
put up with shit i should have never put up with.
made a difference in certain people's lives.
met some amazing people.
met some not so amazing people.
had so much fun i didn't want it to end.
felt so bad i wanted it all to end.

all in all,
it's been a good 5 years.
i've had my ups and downs.
but overall, it's been alright.

i'm leaving behind all the drama.
i'm leaving behind all the betrayal.
i'm leaving behind all the negative.

honestly, i'm done with it all.
this chapter in my life is over.
and i'm starting a new one.

yes, i'm going to miss stephen.
but honestly,
i don't want to even talk to anyone else.
he is the only one worth it.
and i'm going to miss him insanely.
but the thing about leaving him here is that..
he won't forget me.
he won't replace me.
he will be there when i return.
and i will never forget him.
and i will never replace him.
and i'm always around if he needs me.

of course, i'm visiting once a month.
can't go too long without seeing him.
but i'm leaving.
and i'm never looking back.
this is the right thing to do.
it's the best decision i've made in awhile.
and i'm proud of myself.

no more gossip.
no more lies.
no more betrayal.
no more friends letting me down.
no more heartache.

i'll have the road infront of me tomorrow.
the long road, the desert.
and i'm gone.
i'm not even stopping.

yes, i'm going to miss arizona.
but as i said before, that chapter in my life is over.
and i hope others make the same drastic decision to start a new chapter in their lives.

i love you.
i'll miss you.
i'll see you soon<3
xoxo