I love you, idiot.

ugh,
you fucking idiot.
i love you.
with all my heart.
but i gotta say,
you're hella dumb.
i know you're in love,
but you are so fucking dumb.
and so fucking naive.
you're a smart kid.
so wtf happened?


so from my previous post,
all that shit went down.
and what did they do?
they let him come back over.
he admitted to all his lies.
said he would go to AA meetings.
and not do it again.
and you know what they did?

they fucking believed him.
what idiots.
wow.
im amazed.
seriously.

the ONLY reason he said those things
was so he could have a fucking
place to fucking stay.

HELLO?
am i the only sane one here?

fucking idiotsssssssssssss.
so i call my bff up.
and i'm like..
so what happened?
and he told me
that his bf came clean
and wants to get help
and stay there
and im like..

as long as he is there.
as long as he in in that house.
i will NOT be coming around.
i won't be coming for xmas eve if he is there.
i won't be coming there if you need me.
i'm not going near your house
until he is fucking gone.
and that's the end of it.
i don't want to hear shit about him.
i don't care.
i don't care if he hurt you.
because you won't listen to me anyways.
all i can do is try to convince you.
and nothing can convince you.
so i don't care.
if you wanna see me,
you drive to see me.
if not,
i'll see you after he is in jail in janurary.
cause, i don't care.
i love you.
and im being an awful friend.
but i don't care.
goodluck.

and that's how i left it.
and i feel shitty.
but i don't care.
i love him
with every ounce of my being.
and hate his other half
with every ounce of my being.
but he has to learn.
and if he wants to get fucked over again
and again
and again
and not listen to me
it's his own choice.

but when he does get hurt
which he will
if he stays with that piece of shit
dirty old ass mexican
faggot, lying, manipulating,
thief, asshole.

well..
I TOLD YOU SO.


love you.
xoxo