Gamer, not nerd. <3

It's true.


i've known you for awhile now.
and i can honestly say,
i love you.
you're amazing.
you're perfect.

you are exactly the kind of guy i want.
exactly.
you are intelligent.
you aren't a dickhead.
you are funny as fuck.
we can joke around.
i even fell in love with your cute accent.
i think it's adorable when you have man-sleepovers.
even when you're drunk, it's hilarious.
you confess your love to me.
and take off all your clothes,
and wear only a guitar for me.
it's the sexiest thing i've ever seen,
i won't even lie about that.
i can make fun of you, and you won't get mad.
i really do think your headset is cute.
i laugh whenever i see it.
and yes,
you are a gamer.
not a nerd.
<3

distance sucks.
it really does.

you tell me all these stories
about your girl problems,
all the time.
and i cheer you up.

i know i recently wrote a blog about another guy.
but honestly,
if you were here,
like actually here,
you'd be my life.
you'd be it.
the whole thing.
kissing under the stars.
spooning while we sleep.
watching endless movies for no reason,
then missing half of it because i probably couldn't keep my hands off of you.
painting your room, hot pink.
dating.
marriage.
kids, even though i don't want any.
growing old.
i can so see it.

you go through girls so fast.
you always end up getting dumped.
i don't understand it.
they don't know what they are missing.
they are missing it all.
you are nice.
and sweet.
and affectionate.
and actually think about their feelings.
and i guess girls are so used to jerks,
it's like a shock to their system,
and they disappoint you because
they always come up with something
to not be with you.

i don't understand it.
i'd be the first to tell you
if you were doing something wrong
because i want you to be happy,
with whoever you choose.

i want you to be all hyper and tell me about your great night with a girl you love.
sometimes i just wish that girl was me.
<3
most of the time, not sometimes.

we're great friends.
and i wouldn't trade it for the world.
i'm not trying to ruin it.

i know i tell you i love you all the time.
sometimes you laugh.
sometimes you say it back.
lately,
you've said it back more then usual.
i wish you were here.
that's all i'm saying.
xoxo





Chris : WILL I FUCK CATCH SPIDERS
Lulu : LOL.
Chris : i hate them
Chris : And im scared of them !
Lulu : well me too
Lulu : it's so up to you
Lulu : lol
Lulu :get over it
Chris : YEAH WELL
Chris : YOU DONT RUN AWAY
Chris : LIKE OMG ITS A FUCKING SPIDER
Lulu : LOL yes i do
Lulu : im like.. SHITT and i climb ontop of something
Chris : LOL